runaway

If you were going leave your home forever, for whatever reason, would you leave a letter? Or maybe a video? Or something that would explain why you were running away. Maybe you aren't necessarily running away from anything or anyone, you could just be leaving.

Who would you leave your letter for? Probably someone you love or care deeply for. Probably someone you think would understand your situation. Of course if you were really running away you'd probably think no one could understand. Would you leave your last words for your sister, brother, mom, or dad? Maybe a best friend. There could be people that you wouldn't want to see your letter. Maybe you care about them so much you don't want to think of their sadness at your leaving. So would you keep it a secret? Would you ask the receiver of the letter to never show anyone? Or maybe just a few people. You could want everyone to know. Ask to have your note published in the newspaper or something.

What would you write? Maybe some of your deepest secrets, or apologies for things you did in the past. Would you leave directions for anything? Or requests like "take care of my dog" or "please give Kayla back her pink shirt; she probably misses it." Would you actually say goodbye? Would you leave some parting phrase, or just sign your name? Would you tell a story? Something funny that happened, or something you'll always remember about the person who reads your runaway letter. Or maybe you'd say you don't want to remember.

Where would you leave this note? In your room? Possibly on your desk or bed. Maybe you'd hide it so only the right person could find it. Or you could hide it so no one could find it. would you mail it somewhere, or personally hand it to the receiver. Tell them not to open it until Tuesday or something like that. Then you'd be gone.

What would you take with you? Money, food, water - the essentials. But besides that stuff. Maybe a small gift from someone. Like a necklace from a special someone. Or a picture of your family, friends, or pet. Maybe you'd take your most prized possession. Whatever it might be. Or would you be satisfied with just memories and thoughts? Would you even want to take those if you had the choice? Would you try your hardest to forget everything? And would you succeed?

As you contemplated all these things and tried to think of the best way to put it on paper, would you cry? Would you be proud of yourself? Would you truly be ready to leave everything you know? Would the paper your sister or brother or mom or dad or best friend picked up be wrinkled and would the ink be smudged? How many drafts would be in your trashcan? How many times would you erase the wobbly pencil lines? Or maybe you'd be steadfast in your decision. Strong and dry-eyed. You'd have nothing to miss or worry about anymore. This would be your leap of freedom. And maybe you'd realize once you really had nowhere to go that you were falsely confident. And maybe you'd really be fine, because maybe the place you were leaving really wasn't healthy for you anyway. So you know leaving is best.

But if you sat down and attempted to write your runaway letter, could you do it? Could you really just leave? Wouldn't you miss someone, just one person? And when you thought of why you wanted to leave, would it be for a good reason? It could be. If you were leaving behind a corrupted situation. But maybe you were only leaving because you thought you could, or because you felt like it. If that was the case would you do it?

I imagine it would take quite a bit of time to decide.